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“They’re really nice,” my wife said. “I’d love for this to become a regular thing.”
“Regular?” I asked.
In our house, social obligations are managed the way a border collie manages sheep—and I am very much the sheep. Which is how my wife already accepted Chip and Cindy’s invitation to a “small” dinner party.
“Yeah.” She gave me a look—the border collie spotting a sheep edging away from the herd. “So when we get there…you know.”
There was a protocol. I brushed up on field-tested topics and practiced my smile. By the time we arrived, I felt confident.
Chip opened the door.
“Alan! Great to see you.”
Handshake protocol: firm but not competitive. Two pumps. Release.
I glanced at my wife.
Small nod. Good start.
Inside, Cindy took our coats. There was a brief choreography involving sleeves, elbows, and a lamp tempting fate near the edge of the entry table. I managed to extract my arm without initiating a chain reaction.
Another glance at my wife. The you’re doing great smile appeared—paired, this time, with the don’t stray eyebrows.
I was really getting the hang of this.
In the living room, Larry rotated his arm like a malfunctioning windmill.
“Rotator cuff,” he said. “Pickleball.”
The conversation quickly turned competitive, like veterans comparing battle scars.
“Meniscus,” said a man I hadn’t met yet.
“Achilles,” Cindy called from the kitchen.
I decided to join in. “Ball and socket joints are tricky, the way that flexion…"
I could detect my wife’s eyebrows from across the room.
“…flexion, uhm…oh. That must hurt.”
Larry nodded with the quiet satisfaction of a man who had just taken gold in the Orthopedic Pity Decathlon.
As the eight of us squeezed around a table designed for six, I reflexively assumed the posture of a T-rex in an airplane middle seat. With elbow contact statistically improbable, I managed to relax as Cindy set down an enormous salad bowl, a dish claiming to be green beans, a basket of earnest whole-wheat rolls, and a steaming casserole of lasagna.
“Family style tonight!”
It sounded comforting, although in my family it mostly meant watching cousin Earl defile the stuffing with his personal fork. I quietly initiated the Serving Utensil Monitoring Protocol.
My surveillance was disrupted by a dense cloud of garlic, cheese, and vinegar, along with a vanilla-scented candle Cindy thought would “brighten the atmosphere.” The room smelled less like dinner and more like a Corleone family reunion.
In a Yankee Candle store.
Hosted by a Tik Tok nutritionist influencer.
I could go on.
I snapped into Emergency Mouth-Breathing Protocol. Everyone else, apparently, savored the aroma of Molten Garlic Meat Candle.
Plates began circulating.
Larry dropped a slab of lasagna onto his plate, where it slowly slid sideways
into the salad.
“There we go,” he said.
I watched the salad boundary give way.
Cindy followed with the beans. They rolled downhill into a pale starch system that had previously been stable.
Across the table someone poured dressing onto a tilted plate.
I was about to issue a warning about fluid dynamics when my plate returned looking like the before photo in a disaster documentary. A red tributary of sauce was advancing toward the salad like a slow-motion lava flow. I furiously tore my bread into strips and erected three levees, but not before a small, involuntary squeak escaped.
“Everything okay?” Cindy asked.
“Perfect.” I didn’t look at my wife.
Chip raised his glass. “Dig in!”
Forks plunged.
Mine hovered.
Across from me, Sockless Bob was already chewing. “Cindy, this is incredible.”
He garbled this through a mouthful of debris, demonstrating confidence normally reserved for fighter pilots and people who buy sushi at gas stations. The others tore into everything without a flicker of hesitation, as if eating were just another autonomic function like breathing, blinking, or forwarding cat videos.
Meanwhile, I was evaluating texture and temperature.
Nutritional profile.
Structural integrity and potential safety hazards.
Carbon footprint and environmental impact.
Whether the poor animal in the meat sauce had lived a values-aligned life before passing peacefully surrounded by friends and family.
I could go on.
I fork-probed the salad and took a reconnaissance bite. The dressing hit like cough syrup with Dijon undertones—my brain doing its unappetizing metaphor routine. I needed to fix that or I wouldn’t make it to dessert, and there would be a prickly post-mortem on the drive home.
I closed my eyes and upgraded the dressing to a Château Lafite Rothschild 1787—a priceless elixir whose aggressive tannins and damp cellar notes were now intentional.
But the dressing solution did not scale to kale, which my brain promptly identified as construction paper made from potting soil. So I reimagined it as crumpled hundred-dollar bills, giving new meaning to the term “conspicuous consumption.” Still unpleasant, but now registering as fiscal irresponsibility instead of yard waste.
My wife’s hand drifted onto my arm as she continued her story about Carol’s hip replacement. I realized I’d been holding my breath.
I prodded the lasagna, whose noodles suggested a mattress sample soaked in despair. I had just recast it as memory foam when BAM!—my premolar crashed into a lasagna noodle overbaked into granite. I started to sweat.
My wife’s hand withdrew to higher ground.
I concentrated on breathing and began mentally reconstructing the periodic table.
Darlene, sitting right next to me, bit into an unreasonably crunchy crouton just as I triumphantly reached magnesium. My shoulders jerked.
My wife’s hand returned, and the room came back into focus—a small table, familiar faces.
Chip leaned in. “So, Alan, tell us everything—what do you do, what do you love, what’s your thing?”
Cindy refilled my glass before I’d taken a sip.
“I work with software and data, but my real passion is music. I play bass. Do you have a creative outlet?”
The redirect worked. I sat back and nodded as Chip and Cindy tried to spin pickleball and travel into creative pursuits. I could tell my smile was at least 65% real. I would make it through the evening intact.
Later, in the car, the quiet felt almost medicinal. Streetlights slid across the windshield. My wife kept one hand resting lightly on mine, and my shoulders lowered a notch at a time.
We drove for a while without talking. She perked up. “Oh, I’m really excited about Saturday.”
“Saturday?”
“We’re all going to try that trendy new place downtown.”
My shoulders went back to battle stations. “What place?”
“The Reverberation Room. Don’t worry. It promises a relaxed, intimate vibe.”
Her hand stayed on mine, but I couldn’t feel it anymore. It was no match for the thought of a trendy restaurant at full volume.
Over the next few days, life shrank back to manageable proportions. Work, errands, and meals that were just meals.
Saturday arrived, and my wife reminded me that this dinner was our chance to consolidate gains. A strong second showing could lock us into the rotation. A weak one, and we’d become people you have to think about for a second.
Half a block away, we could already hear it—the low, continuous roar of a hundred conversations ricocheting off hard surfaces. Inside the front windows, people leaned across tables, mouths open mid-shout, hands carving the air in big enthusiastic arcs. Someone laughed in harsh, stuttering bursts, like a car refusing to start in the cold.
We stepped through the door, and the “relaxed, intimate vibe” resolved into polished concrete specifically engineered to concentrate sound and beam it directly into my brainstem.
By the time we sat down, the check engine light on my nervous system was flashing nonstop. I could barely hear the server explaining the artisanal origins of the butter, which was either handcrafted by monks, sandblasted by skunks, or fan-wafted thigh chunks.
“What are you getting?” my wife shouted.
I turned to the menu, but it was like reading Chaucer in a herd of fornicating walruses. I think I accidentally ordered a chair leg.
Darlene, sitting across from me, might as well have been a mime. Sockless Bob, on my right, noticed I was struggling and leaned in with a playful smile and a mouth stuffed with “ancient grain” quinoa patty. He shouted—and I quote—“Gerfunka shumpin glorf,” laughing so hard he garnished half my plate with predigested quinoa.
I forced what I hoped passed for a chuckle and mentally constructed a tiny dam around what was still safe to eat—mainly my napkin.
Just as I finished fortifying my napkin quarantine zone, a busboy dropped a tray of silverware onto the concrete floor, producing the sound of an asteroid colliding with a glass planet. My body did what any well-adjusted nervous system would do: I launched three inches straight into the air, knocked over my water glass, and forgot how language worked.
Conversations at nearby tables slowed just enough to confirm that I was no longer just with the group—I was now the featured event. Everyone at the table turned to me, silently weighing whether to call 911 or Google “how to reset a human being after a power surge.” It was a familiar moment: my friends experiencing a brief blip while my circuits fried in public.
I gave them a thumbs-up, mumbled “Table. Fork. Good,” and spent the next three minutes running a diagnostic on my motor functions.
As the meal resumed, I picked at the uncontaminated quadrant of my own “ancient grain” quinoa salad, nodded occasionally, and attempted to power down my sensory system. By the time dessert arrived, I had fully disassociated from my body, which apparently enjoyed the coconut cream tart.
I stayed that way through the check, the coats, and the walk to the car, communicating mainly through nods and emergency facial expressions.
Then, once in the car, I screamed, “QUINOA ISN’T EVEN A GRAIN!” until my check engine light finally went out.
My wife’s lit up solid red.
So the next time we went out, I didn’t leave restaurant selection to chance. I steered my friends to Carryout Palace, where the tables existed solely for legal reasons. We had the entire seating area to ourselves, interrupted only occasionally by a DoorDash driver glued to his phone. It was an especially good night: the kitchen staff forgot about us, leaving our conversation to unfold over the soothing buzz of a distant microwave and the soft rustle of a paper bag.
Peace lasted right up until the bill arrived.
Cindy placed it gently in the center of the table, like a ceremonial object.
No one moved.
Darlene went first. “Okay. How do we want to do this?”
Five adults leaned forward, squinting, silently attempting arithmetic to determine the exact price of not appearing cheap.
Sockless Bob announced, “I only had water.” He was still chewing.
“You also had half the calamari.”
“I didn't want it to go to waste.”
My wife leaned toward the bill. “What’s the total?”
“One eighty-seven twenty-three,” said Cindy.
They all froze, despite holding phones powerful enough to land a rover on Mars.
“So if we just divide by six...”
“But I didn’t have dessert.”
“And we split that second appetizer.”
“Does that include tax?”
I had already balanced it to the penny in my head three different ways, but my brain kept recalculating anyway, its off switch broken again. As my fingers repeatedly tapped out the numbers under the table, I fought the urge to step in, knowing I’d become anchored in the very chaos I was trying to escape.
I retreated to silently ranking episodes of Battlestar Galactica by fraks per minute, as a chaotic mix of credit cards, rumpled cash, and Venmo transactions began to assemble on the table. It didn’t match the bill, but everyone agreed it was “close enough.” Darlene’s parking meter was about to run out.
I shoved a few extra dollars onto the table when nobody was looking, restoring numerical homeostasis before the discussion metastasized. No one noticed, which was the goal.
And also the problem.
My wife glanced at me as we walked toward the car and quietly took my arm. I tried hard not to thunder “But everyone agreed on the appetizers!”
I almost made it to the driveway.